since EYA, i was actually in a 模糊的睡眠状态...
the day before, i had only 2.5 hrs of sleep and i was totally in the mood of sleeping... daydreaming the whole day and i had a very very bad day.
现实总是梦想的反义词。
你希望它美好，它就叫你经历痛苦。
只有你对它无所求，它才可能给你一丝希望的曙光。
可惜的是没有谁会此生无所愿，无所求。
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‘它’干吗要跟我们过不去。我不是上辈子欠了它的，就是上辈子跟它有仇。我们干什么事情都好象干涉到它，什么它都要管，什么都要插上两句。我们对它可没有不敬，只是它所做的已经超越我们能够承受的能耐极限。我们不是求着来看它这个不相干的‘人’的脸色。是人都希望得到该有的尊敬，可它却好像意识性的针对我们。也许这才是我真正遇见的现实-残酷的，无情的，自私的
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再也没有天真和梦幻
再也没有所谓的义气和真诚
谎言是生存的基本
互相利用只是家常便饭
主宰他人人生则将是人生最高境界
这种现实才真正开始迈进我的人生
它将渐渐蔓延
直到我没有办法解脱
痛苦才刚刚开始
可我已经精疲力尽
我不想也不要
可是却明白这是
逃不掉的命运
摆脱不了的噩梦
黑暗侵袭这我的蓝天
我要奋斗
逃不开
我不逃
我不会放弃
我不会气馁
它想我被击垮
我却死不绝望
战争才刚刚开始
我不会因它伤心难过
不会因它而影响我的人生
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‘它’若有三肢六臂，我就是观音娘娘。若它想犯痴，我可不奉陪。。。
告辞。
不送。
ssef: this week is our literature research week.. tmr will be the last day hopefully... if the ... dare to extend it to next week... ah ha... i also cant do anything.... sign*~
we've been spending our day at cheryl's house, we drank milo.. then keeping filling our stomach with food.. until i was so full that i cant eat any more...
zhangjie's repeating this line: we are so efficient today....
yeash we are.. becus as wat cheryl is saying... becus becus, we are copy and pasting from our smp report... haaa. very true.. such an easy job..
we copy and paste the abstract and intro, and a little modification and addition will do our proposal..
haaa
wat a day
hey!
you know what! the words on this blog is green in colour! that's why it's 很暗..
this is
white. this is green
green...aiyo.. the small green and the big green look so different...
last time i mentioned about doing revisions, like math, chem, eng... blah... right? tell you, i started none...
last thursday, we went back to the nus lab, and ha, believe me or not, we are made to do literature review.. wow... now, i still dont feel like doing the research thing we are suppose to prepare ourselves before monday (when we will be meeting in the lab again).
SYF song is out already.. the last part need some practise, the others are manageable... let's hope for the best.
today, i accompanied ** to mediacorp for the campus superstar thingy... (i am not allowed to name her... maybe after she gets in, i will then be allowed :D of course i hope i can get to name her).. it's really a very very very deserted place (or what they say, the "wuluu" place, i dont know the spelling, is there even one? hmm...) it doesnt even have 7 eleven.. lousy.. so i have to fill my stomach with a cake as my lunch... it's not a pleasant thing. the cream thing really made me sick, i felt like vomiting, haa. but i still managed to finish most of it... (that's why my weight problem will never be solved.. haaa.. my suggestion for others: dont even try, dont even buy that thing for lunch)..
and what's more.. the queue is super super long.. we waited till 3.30pm.. since 12noon... and she is not even a bit close to the end... and she has to go tmr again to SING... haix.. mediacorp...
OH!! the venue is in the carpark. that sucks.. stupid place for audition..
anyway... i got home like around 4.30pm... (my right foot is getting worse, the pain... AH~) then i did not go according to my plan... i got really tired.. so i slept for a while.. when i woke up.. guess what.. it's near 8 pm... pathetic..............
holiday is coming, but i have no mood for it.
thinking about ssef is already enough for me. it's going to be another boring and restless holiday... i really want a real holiday!!!
i planned to do some work today.. like math, chem, eng or anything.. but i ended up watching tv and watching 家有儿女. actually i didnt get to watch 家有儿女，i spend two hours for it to load, so i only watched one episode.. a very very very boring day... i guess i will end up gaining weight again... since i finish twilight, all i do in the day is only eat, sleep, watch tv and eat, sleep again... feel like a pig... (hmm, but pig dont get to watch tv!)
i will be a secondary four in just two month... amazing... i cant believe i have gotten this far.. a senior... real senior.. perhaps the third oldest student in the school?
oldest: Zhang Jie
2nd: Trang
3rd: me...
unless there are others born before march 1991 in our batch...
ah.... i am going 18....
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