i didnt know what to post about..

guess i have some thoughts about twilight again...

years ago, i wonder if one can love two at a time (the LOVE isnt the friend or family love of course).. well, twilight explain it well.. it is possible then..
i hope it doesnt... i hope one can only love one at a time... though no necessarily a whole life commitment, but at least you keep ur heart to only one person.
that will make it more .. holy..

ha.. but that's not true.. everything's possible.. even if you dont want it to be true.. it's something you cannot avoid..

bella, have her heart(s) to both Jacob and Edward is something i am afraid to realise in the later part of the book. but i seems unavoidable..
i had a hard struggle when i was about to read that part. i was sad.. more pissed. i hated bella being so indecisive.. whenever she's the chance to make herself clear for Jacob, it always turn out worse.. she forgives too fast, she seems too happy with Jacob, too comfortable.. even she's trying to convince herself that she only love Jacob merely as a friend (though the love felt stronger than any other kinds only becus he's her BEST friend), but that never seems so in the eyes of Jacob and Edward.

i hated Jacob in the beginning, (still a bit now), but i had myself persuaded.. he's not doing anything wrong. bella is feeling more than just friend towards Jacob, it is obvious (anyone stupid can feels it). Jacob did not delude himself into believing bella's attracted to him, bella's the one who deluded him.

i am still surprised by how graceful Edward is.. how can he accept the fact that bella's in love with someone else when she never would want more than just Edward? and how can he let bella kiss Jacob without getting disturbed?

I dont understand... hopefully, that's not going to happen in real life, not in my life, or any of my friend's life... i would not be able to accept that so easily as Edward...