have been reading twilight these days.. all becus of zhiqi...



sometimes, i really wonder.. and even hope for the real existence of these 'vegetarian' vampire..



you see..



they are immortal, but once they find the other half, they devote themselves completely to that only one person... they dont ditch you once they are no more interested in you. once they love, that's love eternity.. isnt that what love should be?



sometimes, i wonder if the love we have by our lips are really the "love" that it originally meant.



maybe the love that we thought we know is simply an electric impulse that excite ur physical body for days.. if it's strong, it may lasts for years.. but it will fade away eventually... like ur clothes.. the color will always fade, how long it takes depends on the materials it made from...



it's not LOVE then.



i dont know what LOVE really means.. i dont trust my instincts. and i dont think most of us will make the right analysis of it.



ppl usu. says, when you feel strongly about someone that you would even risk your life for, you cant breathe wo him, you are deeply in love with him..

but if that's the case, why will it be gone after years?? why u start to feel disgusted by him? why dont u feel the same way about him that strongly ever again? why life becomes so unbearable in such a sudden? why do you want to keep a distance from him after spending half of ur time quarrelling with him? is that what LOVE is really about?



marriage never equals to love... that i know.



while since marriage is something that keeps u from love, then why u want to marry?



if you want to marry, you wont be loved as you thought you would be.. then why dont you just simply marry someone who you find bearable but not lovable?



i feel like making a fallacy but i dont mind... that's what's on my mind...



rmb there's this article about 80 or 90 percent guys having extramarital relation... it's been common.. for business? their excuse... for thrill and excitement? yes... since life is just a 70 or 80 years.. why should not i make full use of it and enjoy it as much as i can? that's what's on their mind...



when you get married at 20s. the guys never realise ur beauty... when the guys start to mature like you did years before, you are on ur way to fourty.. ur old and winckled... beauty left u... leaving u no choice but watch him having fun outside. well, you can say, " then just get divorce", that's simple to say, but dont forget, your old. you've spent ur most wonderful yrs with someone who did not appreciate it..



reading Twilight, especially New Moon made me feel sad..

seventeen... just one step to adulthood...

i suddenly fear its arrival..

i havent actually start enjoying my youths when i realise i am going on to eighteen... this is OLD..

i dont want to grow old..



i used to wish to grow up, but here i am, scared...
i realised the reason why my parents always envy me so much...
life's going to change, it getting complicated..
i want the innocence, even childish is something i want to feel again