i still feel like sleeping..
now i am suffering from land sickness. because of the sea. the waves are so strong.
OBS is now over. i will never want to go back again.
yesterday, wenjing and i discussed how to burn down the whole island. haa..

it's sooooooo tiring during the 5 days.

the first day,
we got to the island and i was sorted into the watch, DHANABALAN. ( another 15 of our class were sorted into the Eng Song) our instructor was Theresa. we started with some games, then we went packing ( that lasted until our dinner ). we were suppose to do some climbing, but due to the rain and the fact that we were late, we went for cooking. cooking was okay, at least we got our stomach filled. we pitched our tents and we slept on the grass. i did not have much sleep. i kept on hearing noises ( human noises) and felt colder and colder.

the second day,
we woke up at 4.45 am in the morning. i was so cold, freezing.
then we went for some exercises.. well, i dont rmb wat exactly happened after that, ( oh i remembered , we tri yaked, it was fun ) i remembered that we spent hours and hours packing our stuffs (our three sets of clothes, our toiletries, foods, tents and etc., getting ready for real outdoor expedition ). we set off at around 3.45pm. which was like 1 hour or more behind the other half of our class. (eng songs) we set off with almost-10 kg packbag on our back.. the journey was about 30 to 45 min from camp 1 to camp 2. luckily, it started raining just when we were reaching our campsite. we cooked ( instant noodles) and got ourselves washed. none of us realised one of our real challenge was coming up. we had our solo walk.
first, we lined up in one line, each was to keep only a whistle and a fluorescent stick with her, no torch light, no anything else. and made ourselves through half the route we made in the aftenoon ( which was around 15 min walk). after we made through the forest as a class, the two instructors told us that our solo walk was beginning. everyone got very frightened, mainly because of the dark. no body liked it. it was pitch dark in the woods. the ground was muddy and hard to walk. it was so quiet everywhere, you could only hear the sounds made by the creatures on the trees.
each of us was suppose to keep a distance away from the person in front ( 30 second interval). i was the third one to set off. i wasnt fast, but neither slow. wenjing was the fourth, but she caught up with me just in around 2 or 3 minutes. ( she was RUNNING ). she was so scared. so we walked together..
we walked and walked.. and i spotted a puddle in front, i knew it must be muddy, i was about to step on the left when i changed my mind, so i stepped on the right. AH! MUD!! my whole right feet was soaked in mud.. then i heard another AHHH!!!! from wenjing. she got her feet in mud too! what's interesting is: she stepped on the left side.
soon we caught up with the one in front of me.. and then, we heard Arthi ( she's supposed to be the eighth ). then the journey became less scary. we chattered along the way.
we were informed that our campsite was flooded with water because of the rain, we had to sleep under the shelter. the night was still as bad as the first night. it was cold and hard.

the third day,
we set off for our real land expedition, a whole day walking through the forest with a 10kg packbag on our back, and you know, i was holding onto a tent too. the hardest part of the trip was the time when we had to walk down the hill, our navigators chose a harder route for us, but we did it. many of us got mosquito bites, but i was lucky enough to get no bite at all. maybe the mosquitoes did not like my smell XD.. too smelly haaaaa... but the others smell no better than me. but they got bites all over their bodies. we camped at the beached that night, sleeping on rocks was suppose to be very uncomfortable, but i slept very well that night, maybe i got too tired.

the fouth day,
and the worst day of my life. we went for our sea expedition, at first we only got ourselves wet, soaked in sea water, then we went through the mangrove swamp. at first, the water was still there, but soon it was gone, my boat was the last one. when he first few boats had already made through the swamp, my journey through the mud just got started. no one in the front moved at all. wenjing got stung, she's too weak to move any more, yuhan's leg was very painful. we stayed there for very long, until most of the water was gone, the mud around was very very soft, you cannot stand at one spot for more than 5 seconds, if you did, you are mostly likely to get yourself stuck. there are insects all around, small crabs, worms, and many other small creatures that i has never seen in my life. the mud smells like shit, i feel like in a big pool of poo. but it was not the smell of the mud that bothered me the most, neither the creatures in the mud, but the boat, our triyake. the triyake was very heavy and becase the water was flowing away, the mud was getting harder and harder under the sun, it was getting more difficult to move the triyake. amanda sum, esther lim, and wenyi, we count down from 30, trying to get to our destination within the 30 counts. well, it was going on well at first, then, when it got harder to move the boat, amanda and esther simply abandoned the boat and they moved away, leaving wenyi and myself behind with our boat. we cant move our boat at all with only two of us. wenyi started to cry, i was getting dehydrated. white stuff started to appear around my lip and i felt weaker than ever. but i still did not want to give up. at that moment, when i saw some of them abandoning the boat s simply because they thought that they were not their boats and they were tired, i felt very sad, even worse than having to pull our boat to the mud hill where we can reach water. i did not know if i still can trust this class anymore in the coming two years. i did not want to know them anymore and i got really frustrated. then, nageish offered to help us though she was having touble at the same time, and some came back to help us even though they were already out of trouble. i felt touched and my confidence came back. finally, we did it through the mud.
there are something else i must say, though i know it's better if i keep it down.
i felt very disappointed to my two triyaking partners. i was the one sitting at the back, i had to control the direction all on my own, you were so dependent on me, i was glad tht you trusted me, but you were too dependent on me, i could not do all this alone, no one helped me to turn the direction until i asked for help. when we were in the sea, you two were resting most of the journey, i knew you were exhausted and not feeling well, but none of you two thought about me, i was dehydrated, i was tired, my whole body was aching. i still had to paddle alone. okay, you had helped too, but watching from the back, i could see very clearly that you were not trying ur best at all, your paddle were simply touching the water, while i had to sink half of my paddle and paddle with all my strength though i merely had any strength left, and you were blaming me for not keeping close to the shore and blaming me for asking you two to paddle so many times. we were the third at first, then soon we became the last. the boat that had only two paddles was even faster than ours. why? never you asked yourselves?
you two soon began to believe that i have a lot of strength, but let me tell you, i may be a bit stronger than you, but i believe you are not any weaker than the most of the rest of the class, why they can do it, but not you? because you were not trying. you told yourselves that you are tired, you told youselves that you feel weak. so you gave up easily. tell you why i can do it, because i never gave up, though i could not even feel my legs because they were so numbed when i was in the mud, i kept on crawling. i concentrated onto the thing that i was doing, and i forgot the rest. i controled my mind and all my muscles, but you simply let them taking control of you.
i understand that different body is capable of different things, but i also believe when you want to do something, and you tried you best, you can do anything. ( pls dont misread me, i dont mean things that are impossible like having eyesight of the eagle, swimming like fishes, and pull the stars down from the sky).

from this OBS, i learnt much a lot about this class, some can be trusted, some never. we can always have fun together, but never suffer together.
sorry for my straight forwardness, but this comes from my heart, this is the truth.

that's all i want to say.
i hope i dont have to say this.